Overthinking

Do you ofttimes cerebrate? Does your mind frequently wanders from a certain situation to another and another until it lead you to somewhat unuseful thoughts? And then you begin fantasizing what could possibly happen next? Finishing off to the least favorable outcome? All of a sudden things became so imperceptible. We are on the same boat. Perhaps many others are too.

Though it is not strictly destructive, say thinking big somehow teaches us to assess occurences beforehand in a more logical manner >>least this is where I desire to go for. I believe in most cases it is, especially as to being in a relationship.

Social media is one great deal of a factor nowadays. Wherein we found couples defying the norms and sweeping up the odds. Please don’t get me wrong. They’re cute and totally inspiring. But do we really need to adopt them as standards of society with regards to personal relationships? And when our partners don’t comply we begin doubting them. Feeling so less important and dissatisfaction slowly taking hold of everything. Cross questioning how committed truly (madly deeply) are they with us? In which we get so sceptical. Stimulating our minds to overthink. Forgetting that they are not the ones we idolized on someone else’s social media posts. So why forget their own unique means of showing devotion to us? Worst accused the other person of cheating on us? Speculative of all their actions (be it in social media or not) even the slightest ones. Instantly turning it into a bona fide dilemma.

Later on we demand for assurance. Some of us get so lucky that their “better halfs” happily obliged while others don’t that they decided to rather let go and called it quits. Yet what do we do to ward this off before it gets into our heads first? I do not know honestly.

I for instance made myself unfriend my boyfriend on facebook. But of course He didn’t even notice until I told him so. He asked me to take it back yet I firmly said no. I cannot acknowledge this as a well-thought-out decision for sure considering that we are on a long distance relationship (for now). However barely noticing what he posts or likes and only knowing what he says or do first hand from our personal conversation is quite one to accomplish overthinking. It is both hard and fulfilling at the same time as it helped us build trust towards each other more. So far we are doing just fine and I am hopeful (yes “I” because he, stubborn like a child, still insists that I should accept his friend request once again) that it is better for us this way. We are indeed not the ideal duo but we are simply “us”. We are original.

As much as we admire other match-made-from-heaven pairs declaring affection, imagine establishing yours with every terms of your own. Work up with your mate and indite an incomparable tale that belongs to no one but you.

Disclaimer: Image used is for illustration purposes only. Not in any way originally from the author. Artwork by @3896days.

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To The Person Who Taught Me

To the person who taught me..

That it is okay to bow down if it’s meant cherishing more the relationship

That keeping promises is possible even in each other’s absence

That collecting memories together is a must to relive for some occassions of being apart

That expressing your true feelings is not a weakness instead an advantage

That what you deserve isn’t always to fight for, it is rather what you believe sometimes

That you may not have everything, still with little things that you have, be grateful

That there ain’t just second chances, there are third fourth and more

That not only what you dreamed of, even those far from what you imagine, can happen

That crying or breaking down when tired isn’t always giving up

That there is still a finer and stronger inner self than you thought you ever was

That planning for the future is good but to live each day, each moment is more precious

That too much love won’t actually kill you, it nurtures your whole being in lieu

With or without me by your side, in however circumstances, may you’ll be reminded of all these too each and everyday like how you do to me. Happy birthday, love.

Disclaimer: Image used is for illustration purposes only. Not in any way originally from the author. Artwork by @3896days.

Getting Personal

As for my first blog entry I’d like to write on what’s gonna be the content of this page. Well I’ve got so many ideas in my mind right now but basically it will all be about my life and how I’m taking it (not like dramatically). I’d like to express everything with a light heart. I will share my thoughts concerning my family, my friends, my ambitions, my stirring wheel, my travels, my job and probably anything under the sun that comes right through at a certain time.

I honestly don’t know how long will I able to maintain this blog thing (perhaps I happen to know myself well eh?) but let’s not get there yet as I have just barely started.

So to start off, allow me to bring in a little something of me. I am from a small family of four, which consists of my parents, my older brother (who btw is pretty handsome and is single but I’ll talk more about it sometime on a different blog so watch out for that) and myself. I am an architect by license and currently working for a philippine-based outsourcing company catering exclusively japanese clients. My interests revolve around traveling, baking, extreme (but not too extreme though I’d like to try skydiving haha) activities (that I will detail later on, also to another blog of course) and lot of more other things.

Been thinking if I should put on a purpose as to why am I doing this but I can’t dare say of anything right now. I’m bored? Yes, you can call that. I might as well find out myself as I go on blogging. So until my next penning. Laters, folks!